---emergency3---

yesterday was scary...terrible for me...
yet..i was quite happy...
what was happened actually???
the day before that...i went back to my hometown...
from KL to KP...by motorcycle...
then...before i returned to KL...
i brought my big bro > just returned from russia for a long holidays<>will further her study to india but, do prep at intec first< to visit little sis at STJ...
after that..we went back...
when i turned the car at the junction in front of our house, suddenly the car kiok...and there was white gas evolved from the hood...ahh..big trouble..
we pushed our cousin car to the house...
then, i rushed up...wanted to go back early..
it's already 2.15 p.m.if not..i would be late..
started my motor's engine..vroom3....
later....after hugged and kissed my family members hand....vroommmm....
when i reached seremban...
i didn't know what happen..all i knew was i felt down when i hit the sand at the side of the road...
then all the cars behind me stopped...
i thought my head already hit the divider n i'm gone...
but..i still alive..god thanks...
then.. i stood my motor up and asked the car drivers to move on..not block the other cars...
i was confused at that time..why did i do like that even i was injured...
argh..whatever...
someone said that the car behind me hit me..
n i said i didn't notice it..
whatever... as long as i am alive..it's ok...
i called all my relatives...n they came so fast to help me out..
n also to mr jalal's son...he's kinda good guy..came n helped me...
my nanny also there..how wonderful...
the most important thing is i am happy coz i have this lovely family..
that really take care and concern about me..
i luv 'em so much....
then...my uncle sent my motor to his friend's workshop whilst i drove his ford ranger...
and that was the first time i drive a 4 wheels drive..haha...
after finished repaired my motor...
i continued my journey to damansara after maghrib prayer...
n i reached here safely..at 9.05 p.m.
n i am here now...

moral...
don't drive recklessly like ms say said...
n keep a good relationship with our family members....

---kept alive---

hello there, this time i would like to share with all of you my poem that i wrote by myself..
it's my own idea and not copied from the others...
i am learning literature this semester and poem is our first subject this time...
hope that all of u can get the main idea or story of this poem...
k..read, relax and enjoy it...
laugh as u can if u know what i mean....haha....


"kept alive"

Look at the mighty sky....
Dark...black...cold...
not shining anymore from the moon...
shielded by the angry, watery clouds...

sketch a mesmerizing smile...
on a green warty face...

After a long time...
Live in desperation...
missed the enjoyable moments...
wait with passion...
Now, worry no more...

Heart beats so fast...
They meet again...
Good day to jump high again...like before...
It has just began...
The old song (croak croak) is echoed everywhere...
In an old wet land...
Kept alive...
again...

---kus3---

wow...
it's friday again...
before i pack my bag and go back...
i must attend to idp talk this evening...
hmmm...
to choose which university that i like to further my study...
hmmm...
what comes in my mind now yeah??
new south wales?? curtin?? rmit???
west aussie???
arghhh...whatever la..
as long as i can go there...
i will be very grateful..
hmm..
yeah..my big bro already came back to malaysia yesterday..
after a long journey from russia...
he's now here..
haha..wanna go back to my hometown...
and luckily...
it's durian season in my place..
wanna eat a lot..
yup..nyum2..
that's great....
ok...
hope all of u also enjoy your weekend...see ya..

---long way to go---

today is the beginning of my AUSMAT 2nd semester..
after a week break..
all of us came back to KBU International College..
today is a good day...
coz all of us started very slow...
brain is not functioning well..
after ms chan asked a question..
tut tut tut..5 seconds after that we would answer..
but not all answered...haha....
today is also a smiling day...
coz my class already got our applic's mid year result..
hmmm...
so far so good...even i didn't score pretty much higher....
then...
today is a poem day for my class..
we started learning our new syllabus...
our new challenge...
what was it???
arghhhh....
we are gonna study literature for this semester...
hohoho...
and we should score more on the coursework if we wanna fly to aussie...
coursework???
arghhh...read a poem in front other students at the cafe????
and what other else??
i dunno....huhuhu...
this semester will be very interesting...
i should prepare myself....
focus more on my study...
always motivate myself that i can do this and do that...
help and support my other friends to work and study more...
we just have 5 months only...
before we proceed to the other stage of our life after this...
5 months that will show me where i'll go after this....
huhuhu....
with great determination and support....
i can...
haha....

blurrrr...

kadang2 hati ini jadi hiba..
ntah la, manira pon tidak tahu mengapa...
kadang2 hati ini jadi kosong...
apa yang difikirkan pon tidak diketahui....sunyi sahaja...
kadang2 diri ini terpandang sang bulan di atas sana tersenyum pada bintang2 yang berkelipan..
seronok pula rasanya...
dapat melihat sang bulan yang indah...
kadang2 terfikir juga...
kalau kita di sini terlihatkan sang bulan..
adakah terlihat juga oleh orang di sana....
kadang2 hati ini terasa pilu dan sayu...
tiba2 sahaja...
entahkan nak menangis mahupun melalak...
xboleh juga....
sedih aja rasanya...sunyi lagi skali....
kadang2 diri ini tersenyum gembira tatkala melihat awan, bulan dan bintang yang indah pada waktu malam yang cerah sinarnya...
tiba2 je senyum...
entahkan gila ataupun teringat kenangan yang indah pada satu ketika dulu...
tersenyum pon tersipu sipu..
gila agaknya.....
ini yang pandang awan bintang dan bulan..
yang pandang mesej ape pulak ceritanya....
kadang2 hati ini berkecamuk..remuk redam rasanya..
memikirkan kerja yang melambak xterkira disamping xcukup masa untuk tidur..
deadline esok ya...argh..xaman pulak rasanya..
apa kena mengena dengan remuk redam pulak???
entah la..manira pon xtau..tibe2 je keluar perkataan tu..
hmmmm...
sunyi....
kadang2 terfikir memori indah satu ketika dulu...
semangat dibuatnya...
seronok rasenye...
ingin merasainya skali lagi hendaknya...
ahhh...rindu.....



kesimpulannya::: adoiiyaaiii..aku pon xtau ape aku tulih ni....faidzal@fareez...kemari engkau...
ni sume ko nye pasal ar ni..aku da terjoin kejiwangan ko tu....adoiiii....penin2...


legend pon nak blurr jugakk...
always blurrrr....

---now i know why---

last 2 weeks if i am not mistaken.
i sat my eald oral speaking test.
i was misunderstood actually.
what i thought was come 2o minutes from my speaking test schedule..
not 20 minutes with the whole group.
i got the evening session and i never asked the other guys about the time to enter the room.
and what i remembered was my speaking time was at 5 p.m.
so no need for me to rush to go there.
at that evening also, i was so stressed and tired. so at 2.55 p.m i decided to take a break and bought 100 plus.
suddenly, my friend afif messaged me to come to english preparation room at that time..
i thought he was playing prank on me.
i didn't care.. i wanted to drink my 100 plus first and then take a break for a while..
later, afif messaged me again..and seems like he was so serious with that matter..
he said if i come late i'll not get the question..
i was so shocked.. how come i should come so early???
ahhh!!! big probs....
i rushed to the preparation room...
i was so messy at that time and when i asked the invigilator about my question paper..
she said.." no paper and no question for u coz u are late"
arghh!!!.. i was so dissappointed at that time..
what should i do..i just watched my other friends answered and practiced their speaking whilst i just sat like a stupid person who don't know what is the question that i'll answer..
argh...for sure that was the worst oral i ever attended..
time was creeping slowly...
at last it was my time. the last person for that day..
i told my lecturer about my misunderstanding and hoped that she would understand me..
and the speaking test began..
i just answered all the question on the spot..
no depth thinking and no transition linker i think..
haha...
what makes me thinking about the oral until now is not about my lateness or the question i didn't get.
i want to focus on what miss chan asked about the first part of my speaking test..
about how do i cope my life here...
how about my studies and others..
i answered i am still trying to adapt with this new environment..
and my studies are quite bad due to certain extents such as the Internet, games, movies and more...
and i added.. the most important thing that i lose here are my best friends...
i do not have any best friends here like when i was studied in sdar..
i got so many best friends there not like here..
she asked me what about my other friends in my student house..
i told her that my friends now are just good friends..
they are good friends, not best friends..
these two words, good and best are totally different...
at that moment, i realised that this was my problem..
i do not have a friend that can share my problem like before..
how i am going to face life after this without support from my best friends...
huhu.. hope that i can survive...
i must survive...even i am quite lonely..
but, it's okay...
i should find back my confidence and be the old "fikri@bota" who were always happy and confident with his action...
i hope so....

now i know why......

---my mision---

1. i have 3 novels that i target to finish reading in these couple of days.
- "ketupat cinta" by faisal tehrani.
- "cinta kau dan aku" by siti rosmizah.
- " p s i love u" by cecilia ahern.
just bought 'em.

2. should prepare for my ielts repeat test.
- reading
- speaking
- listening
- and writing.
wish me luck yeah..haha..

3. watch movies.
- star trek.
- angels and demons.
- the curious case of benjamin button
- and watch again one litre of tears...

arghh..so many things i wanna do...
i must finish doing all of this by the end of this week...
hohoho....

---the best man wins---

it's a very good quotation.
i only knew this quotation when my 4th headboy, nurhelmi lukman@mentol said this during the formal assembly in the hall.
i believe that this quotation also helped him in motivated himself in his studies and he succeed.
the sentence was simple..
only contains 4 words...
which describes only the best, the greatest, the most excellent can win...
i believe that if we have our own principle or philosophy, we should follow and rule it out..
and this quotation actually is good for everyone..
especially to those who is still trying to find his or her rhythm or tune..
once you get your real rhythm u'll be yourself and beat the others...

sometimes i forgot that i also have a couple of principles in my life..
and i have abandoned all of it for a while..
i think that's why i am in trouble right now..
i really want to catch my train..my flight...
and my way of life...
once i miss it, i will be very sad for the whole of my life..
so..what should i do now is put faith in myself again and try to find my own and my real confident..
the first step that i should do is having a principle or philosophy that can motivate me...
because i believe that everyone in this world also has a very fundamental principle that we should believe in..
so, if we want something that is impossible..
we should motivate ourselves and get back our strength...
try try and try to improve ourselves...
remember...
only
" the best man wins"
not men win.......
only certain groups of people....
c'mon...
let's us catch the train and flight together and enjoy our life after that....

--unexpected gathering--

yesterday...6th june 2009...
my frenz and i went out to berjaya times square....
they were rifqi, faidzal, ashraf (the sdarians), faiz (acap's frenz) and 'aisyah( my frenz)...
we met at kl monorail around 10.45 a.m...
we took our breakfast beside the railway station..
mamak stall..
but acap and faiz were already at the times square...
i didn't meet acap for a long time..
i think, the last time i met him was during the award's giving ceremony to high spm achievers...
that was the last time..
since then, i just called him once...
haha... he's look same now..but i think totally different from before...
i meant.. the way he think and his style..
i believe he will be a successful man one day..
haha....
we watched movie..
acap fareez qari2 and faiz watched terminator which i just watched it the day before..
haha..then aisyah and me decided to watch 'jangan pandang belakang congkak'..
for the first time, i thought the movie was not good..
but, in the end i noticed that our malay movie is getting better and it's nice to watch it..
i dare to say that jangan pandang belakang congkak will make u laugh and sometimes feel scary and afraid...
it was really a good story to watch....
after finished watching the movies, we went to sungei wang..
took some walk and had our lunch there...
just KFC...finger lickin' good..
actually, 'aisyah was not comfortable in sungei wang and said that she felt like not safe to be there...
we took good care of her..
we knew we should be careful coz there were a lot of people and it was so crowded..
and if u lose ur frend ( especially to those new with that area), it's gonna be bad..
suddenly..we met qamarul ariffin (Q) our old frend...
he's studying at UPNM now...he just took a walk day..
it was unexpected meeting..
and Q decided to follow us after but wanted to go to pavilion for a while coz he wanted to buy donuts from J.Co...haha...
and then..we footed to low yat plaza which is just beside the sungei wang..
i wanted to buy a cooling fan while rifqi eagered to find a new pen drive..
haha..after found all the equipments..
we had our tea..
acap was really excited with his new cellphone...O2...
haha..he tried to google coz that place had a wifi coverage..
all of u should look at acap at that moment...
his eagerness with his phone..haha...
before we went back to kl sentral, our main place to gather before we go somewhere...
we waited for Q..
then we moved..
when we just finished our maghrib prayer at kl sentral's surau..
one more thing happened..
oh..it was rizal muhammad a.k.a baloo..
haha.. he also went out that day..
ahaha....then...we took picture together...
our unexpected gathering..
supposedly should only 4 sdarians..but..at last...6 sdarians...
haha...what a good day for us..and thanked to 'aisyah and faiz coz volunteered to take pictures for us..here are the pixs..


"once a sdarians, always a sdarians"..

--peace---

after a week battled with examination..
after my brain already reached the limit of my genius ness..
haha...
after a week that made all of us cried everynite of doing revision...
after a week we brainstormed our head with everything...
finally...
we made it...
we finished our exam..
really happy coz we are going home..
it's time for a week holiday...
a week to spend time with our family relatives and more...
a week that can make us sleep every time without thinking about studies...
haha..
time to doze off our brain..huhuhu....
happy for a while..
hope the result will be okay..
and excellent..
haha....

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