not in the line...

nowadays...
i have everything...
psp...laptop...wifi...phone...shoes...expensive shirts and more..
i'll get what i want...
but...
i think...bcoz of all these...
i can't perform well in my study..
i am not going to say that all these stuffs affect my study..
this is because of my own problem..
too addicted with the games..
so, spend much time to play games..
not for education anymore...
hmmm....
i am not like this before...
i know myself better...
10 years ago....
i lived in a harsh condition...
in a place called as felda..
i was not from a wealthy family...
just simple....
i still remember what my late mom advised to me..
'angah, life is a like a wheel, sometimes we'll be at the top and sometimes at the bottom, so u must work harder if u want to succeed in your life'
then i knew...actually...
my late dad was a math teacher and my mom was an english teacher...
i did well in math..
but...not in english...
i hated english...
but..i am trying to improve it...
in math...my dad was very strict and firm...
if he teach, he'll really teach you...
believe me...since 7 years old...my siblings already memorized 'sifir'
from 1 x 1 till 14 x 14....
every night we memorized it...
and my dad hold a very tiny rattan...
actually..the tiny one is the best strike if you get at your palm....
and my mom was also a good and firm one...
i did very bad for my english... i didn't know why...
haha...
my dad taught me to be independent..
and be a survivor...
he sent me to join camping since standard 2...
i joined 'pengakap' since that..
i went to jungle...
made some gadgets..tried to learn everything...
not depend to someone to get help...
that's why i can live on my own...
i don't have a 'homesick' feelin' such the other boys...
i know what should i do....
if got problems..i'll ask the expert...my nanny or my uncle...
i still remember one part in my life...
since young... i walked if i want to go anywhere...
my siblings and i would not go to school with my dad...
he sent my mom to another school and my younger bro to kindergarten..
so..we walked...
day and night...
that's why our relationship is good...
soemtimes..it was very frightened to walk in a terribly dark place...
we ran away..with full speed..haha...
at that time...
my late dad taught us to spend money everyday..
if you save 20 cents a day..you calculate it...times with 365 days...
u'll save rm 73..it was a lot to us...everyday...
we just got 50 cents for our break...and we brought food to school..
early in the morning..we wake up early..at 5.30 or 6 a.m...
i always helped out my mom to prepare our breakfast...
if i got time even 5 minutes...
i would read notes....
then we went to school at 6.50 a.m...by foot..
because of these situations...
it made me to be good..i slowly developed my determination and confident...
and..until one part of my life...
i felt like i lost everything....i missed 'em...mom, dad, bro and sis...
now...my life is getting better...
i get more and more things that i want...
i have money to buy this and that..
where it comes from..it doesn't matter..
as long as it's from halal source..it's okay...
and...buying all these things make me forget my root life...
my bringing...
i know....
it's fair enough...
if you poor, you will grateful with what you get..
if you rich, you forget the root...live in you life..
so am i...
i need to catch up the train...i also want to cross over the selat melaka...
i wanna further my study in aussie...
so...



i should be...

in the line......

~~peace~~