galau kerinduan melanda...

sobs sobs sobs..
sekejap je..sekarang da 10/1/2014...
tingal beberapa hari lagi je nak balik msia..
meninggalkan benua Australia ini..
belum lagi nak balik...
galau kerinduan udah melanda dalam diri ini..
oh hati..sungguh kau sayang bumi Australia ni kan..
huhu..
mestilaaa...banyak udah kenangan yang berlaku kat sini..
macam2 kenangan..pahit manis hitam putih..
mengorat sana mengorat sini..
kini reject sana kene reject sini..
haha..
jumpe kenalan OZ mates yang baru dan sangat ramai..
amat mengujakan...
lagi2 geng bikers...
oh ini sangat sayu...
hari2 terakhir ku di sini..
banyak je aku termenung sorang2...
entah..fikiran menerawang sepelusuk Melbourne..
cube meraih kembali kenangan silam..
bermula menjejakkan kaki pada pertengahan Februari 2010...
macam2..tanpa ku sedari ku tersenyum keseorangan...

skarang ni tengah sebok packing..pikir2 ape lagi nak bawak balik malaysia..
sememangnye akan regret sebab banyak lagi ak nak beli untuk penuhkan satu rumah..
kat msia kan barang2 mahal..huhu..

perubahan itu perlu...

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one day kitorang ramai2 hang out ade bbq party untuk budak2 kampung Wandin..
sape yang keje cherry la..ktorang gelar diri as a Wandiner..
happened to be at Elwood Park..near to St Kilda beach..
so event start at 4.30 pm till 7.40 pm..
ak ni jenis kalau lepak x lame..sebab ak xsuke lepak lame2..so 3 jam tu dah kire okay la tu..
lame sangat lepak pon ape je nak borak kan..lagipon nnt hari2 jumpe..
once bbq finished..ak da start kete ingat nak balik..
then jeng2 bella datang buat suare sweet ajak ak lepak ngn member2 kitorang kat San Churro..
ak xde la nak mengata..tapi mereka ni geng2 yang suke lepak and masuk kedai2 mahal untuk a cup of coffee
which ak xberkenan sangat bile ak pon terjoin skali..
tapi sebab member and pikir nak balik..ak ikotkan aje..
pikir balik..kenape perlu bayar mahal untuk bende ciput..kadang2 ak xpaham jugak manusia ni..
is to be classy tu important ke??
maybe I am too simple..


Part 2 ------------------------
sambil2 minum coffee tu..borak ngan muji ngn ihsan..
muji cakap budak2 girls kite ni boleh tahan taste diorang..
dulu mase intern kat msia si muji kluar lepak ngn geng2 ktorang ni..
ak xde sebab ak more to sayang family..asyik dok balik kampung jumpe nenek je..
diorang tanye nak lepak minum kat mane..muji suggest, mamak je la..besides die pon xkesah pon..
and then si Mira gelak gile2 kat muji...mira terus ajak ramai2 gi lepak kat Chilli's..
terkejut badak si muji bile die cakap dok minum coffee and ape lagi ntah..
sekepala je rm50...peh..itu satu pembaziran..
aku ngn ihsan dok gelak je laa..padan muke kau ji..ikotkan sangat budak2 ni..
si ihsan cakap..kalau rm70 kat kelantan dah boleh bagi makan 5 families sampai kenyang da..


Part 3 -------------------------
tengah lepak2 kat San Churro tu..
Q cakap kat girls ktorang.."aku rase, elok kite reunion ke lepak2 ke lepas korang kawen ade anak2 la kot"
pastu Q gelak2 je..
maksudnye bile dah ade anak2 ngn suami baru tau nak berjimat sket..
xde la meliar asyik nak makan or minum bende mahal2..
kot ade 3 anak sume nak rm20 coffee baru kau tau rm60 untuk anak2 punye minuman..haha
padahal rm60 tu baek beli groceries masak..or buat coffee sendiri 50 cawan..



kadang2 ak terfikir..kite nak blame duet xcukup bile gaji kite kcik..
tapi kite xpenah fikir plak nafsu kite tu..
kadang2 rasenye xperlu nak berbelanja mewah selalu..
sekali sekala 3 bulan sekali boleh la kot..
perlu ke? aku tanye jugak diri aku ni..
bukan la nak kate aku ni xsupportive pada kesukaan member2..
just bile pikir balik why should i spend more on something I dont enjoy much..
macam ak suke driving or riding..
sanggup la x makan or x minum asalkan boleh beli minyak..
hahaha..ini pon xleh blah punye reason..banyak kan excuse...
so perubahan itu perlu..

*rezeki tu sentiasa ade..insya Allah..kite kene bekerja untuk mendapatkannya..
yang paling penting, macam mane kite menggunakan rezeki yang diberi..
adakah digunakan sebaek baeknya..
atau pon tidak...

first rant of year 14

13 down..14 to go..
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i'm not a person who like that much to celebrate such this tahun masihi celebration..
still after all happy new year to all..

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yesterday went to new year celebration at fed square..
this time kali ke 3 in Australia and second time in Melbourne..
dulu first year celebrated kat melbourne, 2nd year Sydney, 3rd yr kampung halaman..
and final year Melbourne again..
all the same..heaps of people coming from all over places..
Fed Square tu ketat sangat la nak masuk..
went there with my friends..and ntah macam mane I decided to take a walk alone..
layan jiwang sengsorang..there are couples, groups, families and single alone like me..
tetibe jealous sebab still jalan sengsorang untuk usia begini..haha..perasan..mude lagi laa..
atok2 ngn nenek2 pon ade..at same time aku pikir balik, what is the symbolic of celebrating this??
ntahh..not excited at all..yang ak nampak if something bad happens, many people will get involve..
but still seronok ramai2 countdown and fireworks show on top of few buildings..
happy new year mate!!

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okay lupe nak mentioned...
syukur alhamdulillah I'm officially graduated from RMIT University on 18th Dec 2013..
this degree is for my late parents, youngest brother, my beloved Nenek and all my big family and relatives,
teachers, lecturers, friends and hofkos to JPA..
Thank you very much...
in return, I'm going back for good soon..
still holding on SDAR's motto "Berilmu Untuk Berjasa"..

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this morning I wake up..
xbuat ape pon..2 episode drama korea 'he came from the stars', 2 sequel of the chronicles of Riddick ak khatam tengok for the day..
sangat x memberangsangkan untuk first day of 14..
then i decided to cook mee goreng..mee geti brought by Pak Long from msia haritu ak celur and telan..
sambil masak mee goreng, ak dok kat meja makan and makan keropok ikan dan teh o panas..
dok menung pandang luar..
hmmm...meroyan jugak la hati ni untuk minggu lepas kan..
nampak je penuh aman muke ak ni..tapi hati ak ni sape tau..
ntah..susah jugak kalau melayan sangat..que sera sera..
hanya Allah yang tahu..

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baru ni borak ngn kakak..
merajuk kakak ngn ak..merajok2 pon still lagi chat ngn ak..
sayang betul die kat ak..sampai nanges2 gitu adek ak sorang ni...hahaha..
tengah chat2 terbukak cte pasal matured x mature..
die cakap orang kalau suke seseorang kadang2 sebab hormone...
ak hangguk je laa..penah je denga pasal tu..
pastu die pon ade la cte pasal kes cintan cintun hidup die dulu..
lawak kan?? pillow talk abes ktorang adek bradek..
alkisahnye yang senang, dulu die ade gak crush ni n crush tu pada mamat ni n polan tu yang handsome2 ni..
tapi at one point die pikir balik..mesti ke carik yang handsome?? tapi boleh ke jadi calon??
ntah ape berlaku..berkat doa die dapat la calon gitu..syukur alhamdulillah..
tapi ade terlepas cakap ngn aku..kenyataannye senang aje..
mamat tu rupe paras xde la sangat pon tapi mencukupi lelaki idaman yang die nak laa..
sebab die xpentingkan rupe paras..hahahaha...
pastu ak pon melawak laa..'haaaa!!! abes lah kau kak..nanti ak gtau si polan tu yang kau ngaku die xhensem'
straight gelabah adek ak sorang tu..hahahaha...
lelaki bab hensem xhensem ni pon makan hati tau..kene tau tu..ia satu bende yang subjektif untuk dibincangkan.. lols..
selagi Allah bagi paras rupa tu, bersyukurlah..
pengajarannye untuk ak and sape2, please be matured to choose your life partner..
kan ade dalam tafsir al-Quran...ade bende yang baik Allah berikan tapi kite manusia melihatnye sebagai tidak..dan bende yang kurang baik itu pula kite melihatnye sebagai yang terbaik pada kite..
moga dijauhkan...

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kay laa..cukup la ni..panjang sangat pulak..hehe..
solat maghrib dulu...wassalam.. :)

to conquer is to possess..appreciate is the best way of doing so..

recently terbace post from a friend..
'love is not a possession, love is about appreciation'..
cenggini lah..
cehhh...asyik nak cte pasal love je kan..
jiwang karat betol bak kate dell..haha..

bile pikir balik betul la quote tu..
but mostly people focus more on the possession..
yang mane ak pon xsuke..
hehe..lembut hati sangat ak ni..gaye je rock..lols..

to be honest..ak xsuke sangat 'over' to everything..
especially to your women..
over-protection is no good..
over-gentleman pon is no good..
over-belanje ponnn is no good..
senang cakap over2 ni xelok laa..
lebey2 lagi bile buat depan public..
coz u make the public awkward...
lg2 ak ni..hahahaha..

ade situasi begini yang mane kawan ak datang dari negeri atas angin melawat..
nampak geng lagi sorang ni dating bagai..pastu die cakap ngn aku..
'apsal nampak cam terdesak?'
me dont know to answer.. guess that is a lil bit madness of possession la kot..haha..
betul la tu..bile nampak awek..kawan sume hilang bolayan..
ni yang ak takot..hope me not like this on that coming days..
coz i do love and appreciate my friends..

bile pikir balik..it's easy to appreciate someone..
but kadang2 terpikir jugak does that someone too appreciate me??
que sera sera.. (whatever it is.. it is)
to conquer is to possess.. and not my way of doing so..
no wonder I do love a lot my grandma and my big family..
coz we live to appreciate each other..

still..appreciate someone is the best way of doing so..
u wont get that hurt if something happens..
plus u will not have any hatred or revenge too..

to conquer is to possess..
to possess is greedy..
appreciate it..
better way of doing so..

mencari sesuatu yang hilang..

lately banyak berfikir..
ye laa..lagi2 banyak free time ni..
xbuat ape sangat..banyak mengelamun..

terasa macam something missing in my life..
ape ek??
cinta lah kot..
my feeling love towards Him..
Allah the most grateful and merciful..

hidup mewah duit xberkat pon xgune..
itu pasal dapat duit pastu cepat je hilang..
umpama macam makan sedap tapi xberzat laa..sebab xbace basmallah..

bile xdpt keje..start la mulut ni mengata..
itu la ini la..blame tu la ni la..
yang betulnye diri ni xpernah rase nak mintak betul2 rezeki tu dari Allah..

rezeki itu ade..tahun ni dapat keje cherry packing..baru 3 hari start..
tapi season xcantek..asyik hujan je..so buah cherry xbanyak..
same macam banjir kat kemaman laaa..so bile keje xlame ni..start la masing2 merungut..
duet xbanyak macam dulu..
homaigodd..ak pon salah seorang..
tibe2 baru tersedar..xbleh blame bende2 gini..ade la maksudnye kenapa bencana alam sebegini terjadi..
maybe bile banyak sangat rezeki masing2 xreti bersyukur ke..dok perabis duet je ke..
so..kene bersyukur laaa...

still ak sedang mencari cinta Ilahi..
ianya hilang seketika..teringat kisah 12 tahun lepas yang mane ak ngn arwah abah same2 dok kem rumah tok guru agama 2 minggu untuk mendekatkan diri pada Nya..
pagi petang siang malam asyik mengagungkan kebesaran Ilahi dengan berzikir kalimah2 suci..
membaca al- Quran..mendirikan solat tahajud sepertiga malam..amalan2 sunat dan seumpamanya..
rindu..rindu sangat...sesungguhnya cinta pada Mu itu sangat manis..

kini diriku terkedu..jauh sangatkah ak ter cross jalan..
moga dapat u turn balik ke arah yang lebeyh baek..
semoga dapat jumpa sesuatu yang hilang itu.. 

me in between..

there are two couples...
me in between..

yang satu ni..orang cakap..
kalau sayang tinggal tinggalkan..

yang lagi satu pulak..
kalau sayang di kepit kepitkan..

but me in between..
errrkkk..dongak tepi pandang langit je laa...
awkward moment laaa..

don't ask me

almost done...
will be graduating and leaving Melbourne for good...
I do love Melbourne..a lot..
many friends..nice environment..beautiful places..
love em' all..
but have to go back..

malaysians who comes here will ask me..
"will you stay here??"
please don't ask me..
I'm sad to leave..
if there's opportunity given..I will..
but on the other side..
I have to go back..
my big family is waiting for me..

probably..i hope..
I will be back here again..
with my family..
then you can ask me why..

vice versa

(→_→)
finally i knew why i liked her..
her stunning eyes..
and her mesmerizing smile..

liking is easy..
but..
to be liking isn't..

the way you acted to me made me want to back off..
and i did back off..
most of the times..
even if deep inside me said 'no'..
i just acted the way that i didn't want..

i always wanted to hold you..
but the words just stuck in my throat..
i could not push you to like me..
coz that will make you uncomfortable in the other way..
why it always..

vice versa..

how did it feel like huh??

it's already been almost 11 years...
time flies so fast..
from a boy to an adult..
until i'm not clearly know the meaning..
of to be loved by my own parent..
how did it feel like huh??

love from nenek, aunties, uncles and big family are way different..
coz i respect the love as a big family..
I accept the love respectively..coz they sincere to do so..
but from my past mom and dad..
i didn't remember how did it feel..

just wondering, how my parent would celebrate my big exam results like UPSR, PMR, SPM
and now will be graduating soon..
will they crying?? hug me tightly?? smile widely??
wish any inspiring words??
buy me dinner or what??
curiosity kills me..

still remember..
abah used to buy me new racket, racing control car and soccer boot after i scored well in my final exam..
abah used to buy us dinner outside when all his kids did a good job..
mak used to hug us and gave kiss to all her kids..
and mak would cook us special food for that too..

when Along studied in SDAR in his form one..
Abah and Mak once brought all of us to pizza hut..
pizza hut was expensive at that time..especially to us..budak felda..
even to get KFC was also hard..
their salaries are not that big..coz both of them preferred to save more that spend more..
their treat still way different..coz there were sweet memories there..

after they passed away,
i can say that until now on i haven't been celebrated my birthday properly..
no one remembers except my siblings..
five years in SDAR..
1 and half years in KBU..
and 4 years in Melbourne..
no one remembers..
coz my birthday is too early in the calendar year..
just help preparing my friends birthday all the times..
besides, my siblings are not together for the whole time..
we spend time far away from each other after my parent passed away..
and now there is no need to celebrate my birthday anymore..
coz i dont feel it.. to be celebrated..

during my childhood time, abah and mak would buy me or do anything to celebrate my birthday..
there would be a cake..gifts..and delicious food..
close neighbours were invited too..hilarious party..
there was a time when it supposed to be me cut my cake..
but kakak cried loudly to cut first..her desired to cut was way too high..
even it was not her birthday yet.. lol..
she was so cute at that time with the cone hat..
that was my last birthday party i think.. when I was 11 years old..

so..still wonder..how are they going to appreciate me now if both mak and abah still alive??
miss them so much..
May Allah bless them in the world hereafter..

it's lonely...

lately...i'm lonely..lolz..
what I meant is tinggal keseorangan dalam rumah ni..
coz both of my housemates go for a work..
pegi pagi balik malam..
so everyone tau yang ak kene tinggal kat rumah..
haha...
when I got nothing to do.. no one to text.. no drama to watch..
I just listen to musics and watch youtube..

lately, selalu dengar Hot FM online..
bile denga panggilan hangit tu...nak gelak pon xsampai hati..
sebab jahat sangat..xbaek buat orang aman, jadi gadoh tau..isk2..
xpatot2..nak melawak pon bertempat la jugak..
from there I got attached with few current favourite malay songs..
what i like to listen till now on are:

Masih aku cinta - Shila Amzah
Sandiwara cinta - Republik
Ku akui - Hafiz
Bahagiamu Deritaku - Hafiz
Takkan terpisah - Black
Hanya aku - Hyper Act
Kau pergi jua - IamNeeta ft Najwa latif

bile pikir balik, kenape lagu ni sume lagu sedih..
and kenape org (aku pon kdg2) suke denga lagu sedih2 ni..
layan jiwang sangat2..
lagu sume stok yang lepaskan kekasih..bakal melepaskan..ditinggalkan..teringat la..
lagu2 ni buat aku rase lagi lonely lagi ade laa..sebab ditinggalkan..huhu..
owhhh..aku pulak yang berperasaan..susah betol..nnt mcam2 ak pikir..isk2..
nnt kene carik lagu yang bagi semangat untuk meneruskan percintaan ke..huhu..
sengal..

*have to find interesting things to do in my empty days..otoke?? (version korea)..
dousyioukanaaaaa?? ( version jepon sambil duduk tepi tingkap pandang langit)..

ikot alur air...

baru je call nenek td..
ade mak lang skali...
aku kalau call mesti gelak keh keh keh keh ngan nenek..
padahal nak mintak enek doa esok exam..
ntah camane terbukak cte pasal kawen ni bagai..
al maklumlah cik mun2 si cousin aku tu nak kawen hujung minggu ni..
tanye la nenek.. "turn sape pas ni?"..
nenek jawab.. "haha mane tau kau punye turn pulak"
gulp..heee.."ape la nenek ni?? ramai lagi kottt"

pastu nenek pas fon kat mak lang..
"haih...seronok ko gelak mengekek kan bangahh..mentang2 nak abes"..
ak sambung gelak je laaa..pastu cakap pas ni keje kumpul duet..
"haaaa..elok la tu..kumpul duet tu banyak2..pas ni turn kau la plak kawennn.."
bersungguh mak lang kenekan aku...
pastu aku jawab.. "heeee..kalau ade jodoh..In Shaa Allah..tengah kumpul duet la ni mak lang..banyak2"
sambung gelak kekekeke...
mak lang sambung.. "org kate ikot alur air.. sampai la masenye nnt tu..kumpul duet banyak2 tau"..
hahaha.. "ape laa mak lang nii!!! tibe2 plak pressure ni, maklang"...gelak kekeke ak lagi skali..

*dulu enek ngn mak lang tengok kitorang kecik2 maen kejar ramai2 kat depan rumah..skang ni turn diorang nak lepaskan sorang2 anak kecik diorang hidup independent plak dan berumahtangga.. mesti happy kann?? life goes on and it will not go back around..

last exam for my degree course..ngeee

waaaa...xsangke..
esok last amek exam untuk course undergaduate ni...
moga2 semuanya dipermudahkan..
takowttt..huhu..

In Shaa Allah.. may Allah bless me..amin..

*nak call nenek laaa..huhu

SDARians and the cheers!!!

"Lions in the field
Laaaaaa la la la la
Lions in the field
Laaaaaa la la la la
Looks like super star!!! "

"Lai chi kang
semangkuk dua kupang
hari sudah petang
kita mesti menang!!"

"Eeee re sa te reeee
Masu wa su wassaaa
ki ci ki ci tong gaaa
weeeii wa weiiiiii wa weiii wa weii wa waaaaa"

these are some of the Sdarians cheer songs..
we called em cheers!!
and we have "budak cheer"..commonly fivers and the beloved form one juniors..
one of the rules there is to learn cheers..and to cheer our Lions..
our beloved rugby team..
coz that's our pride...
we have a cheer training class too..
usually weekend..
there is a step stages under the library facing the field..
I forgot what we called that place..that's where we train our cheer songs..
when Lions play in the field, in big matches especially the seniors..
budak cheer wajib dtg.. especially in our pitch..

when I was the super junior..i did enjoy the cheers!!
adore when we screamed loud for the super seniors...
there were the stars in the pitch..our fivers were champions..
they always won..and they were the n9 and SBP south zone champions..
super amazed with them..
still remember when we cheered them on rainy day..that was hilarious memory..

and when I was the fivers and one of the Lions..
I knew how eager we were on the pitch...especially when the cheer boy just beside the field..
they came to cheer us in Kuala Pilah TMS and Zaaba (our main rivals) pitch on state level..
they cheered..they danced...
and we won..
we were the champion too..as our seniors..

one most awesome memory was when cheer boys coming for my Final Volleyball U18 N9 state level match 2007..
that was the second time SDAR in finals state level..first one was in 2006..
i dont remember the past history..what I know is SDAR never had the best volleyball team as in my era.
I made the team since form one..coz I was the captain..
and we were the N9 champions..
I beat my own N9 team when I was primary school.. that's the most memorable..
the best part was the budak cheer were very supportive for the final match..

they shouted our names..one by one..

"Boooo taaaaa in the court
Laaaaaaaa la la la laaa
Boooo taaaaa in the court
Laaaaaaaa la la la laaaa
Looks like superstar!!!!" - ^^

random rant

live well or live hell?

u choose

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simple or difficult..

live ain't easy if u look in difficult way..

and live ain't difficult if u look in easy way..

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let's make a simple scenario

ur friendship is strong as it almost 6 years

suddenly ur bestfriend try to flirt the same girl as u aim / like for a long time

how do you react?

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look masculine

but i prefer virile

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current world

it's not the truth that people will believe

it's only evidence to show the prove

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it's easier to make up stories than telling the truth

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I'm mesmerized..
when I look at you sky...
you look peaceful..
like nothing to worry..
such a beauty..
u make me jealous for a while..
in this cold shivering night..

then come the stars too..
without any shame..
out of nowhere..
sparkling..
blinking..
like a Diva..
then shine the night..
alive.. 
and make the Moon smiles..
blushes the face..
warm like a green tea..
with pleasure..
such a harmony..

when I look at you guys..
i just want to forget..
the stressful life..
the heartless feelings..
the blurred moments..
the boring nothing-to-do day..
wish I could be one of you..
and keep reciting the khalimah..
"La ilaha illallah".. ( There's no God but Allah)
to be under His protection too.. 
 
*sigh .... =='

we are not like super mario..

still remember game super mario dulu2??..
super mario ada 3 nyawa untuk sekali challenge..
if wrong step or jump, can die..
but still has another 2 lives to keep on..
and still can add another life again on the journey..

but we are not like super mario...
we just have one life to keep..
we go on the same journey..
but just the different is the path that we decide to go with..
either good or bad..
either easy or hard..
either to be loved or to be hatred..
either to live in peace or in war..
either happy or sad..
either sweet or salt and bitter..
this is what we have to choose..
it's hard to turn back once u already chose what would you like to be..
coz it takes long time..
and if you reach back, u are way way behind..

same as super mario..
if he dies for the third time..
he has to go back and start at the first stage..
still..
he can start again...

but we are not like super mario..
we cannot try so many times..
coz our life is not to be experimented all the times..
it's just we have to choose..
which way are we going to go..
to make the one and only life be precious..

kemaen lg diorang bercinta..

org kalau bercinta da xingat dunie sekeliling kan??
dulu ak xcaye statement ni..
tapi sekarang baru percaya sebab nampak depan mate..
bak kate sorang kawan aku tu..
kalau boleh yg si teruna nak amek sume aktiviti2 member2 laen untuk kontek si dara..
dulu kitorang yang laen sempat laa whatsapp layan kerenah masing2..
tanye kabar bagai...
tapi skarang hapah pon x..kot mesej tu..da x whatsapp da..iMessage je..
pehh downgrade tu..
ye laa..orang bercinte..off connection dunia da..haha
kite doakan banyak2 je laa..haha..

dulu..si dara kene sound ngn aku..
"eh kau ni, jgn la dok jual mahal..mamat tu da try sungguh2 kot..org da ikhlas, layan je la..kau tu pon jangan la buat gaye keras..nnt kalau keras sorang pon xberani kacau tau..lagi satu..baek carik laki mase study ni..lagi2 yang dok dekat2 kau ni..sebab kau da kenal da dekat 4 tahun..da paham perangai die camne..kalau mase keje nnt, sempat pulak la ko stalk..ko ingat stalk fb tu cukup ke mak cik??..jgn keras2..give a try dulu..xyah la nak pikir jauh2 sangat..xcube xtau.."
agaknye si dara tersentap kot dalam hati..
tu yang sekarang dalam prosess menerima..

skang tengok ape jadi..
bukan 24/7 daa...25 / 8 kot on call..
doktor pon kalah..
tapi elok la..hope for the good beginning of someone life..

aritu pon ak kene ceramah ngn sorang ustazah cun ni..
kene mention cun..haha..
lebey kurang gini lah ayat si dia mengikut kefahaman aku..dan mungkin ade tokok tambah..haha
"eh kite ni da sampai mase xleh nak maen2 da bab2 cinta kawen ni...
kalau nak berkawan, mestilah aim nak kawen..
bukan nak maen2..
so doa je la ade jodoh..
kawan bertahun tahun pon xde jodoh xjd..
just ade jodoh tu ade laa.."
hangguk kepala dengar ceramah ustazah cun tu..

semoge yang kemaen bercinta tu berjaya ke tahap seterusnye..amin..

*ni nak doa la ni..agar hati tu diperlembutkan untuk menerima diri ini seadanya..amin..^^

port tdo yang baru..tapi penah je buat dulu..haha..

dulu kat asrama..selaen tdo atas katil..aku suke tdo kat lantai..
sebelah katil..depan loker baju..yang paling best..bukak loker tu..
kirenye pintu loker tu jadi dinding laa antara ak ngn dinding lagi satu..
selalunye mmg dapat katil tepi tingkap..tu yang best..masyukkk...

skang ni ntah macam mane, suke plak tdo bawah meja study..
alih kerusi..tarik sleeping bag..
kiok la bawak meja...comel kan??
macam wombat plak ak tdo..sengal..
tapi dulu penah je buat..hahaha..

mase form 1, tiap kali kelas sains kat makmal..
mase tu yang ajar cikgu marzuki..
lawak gile..
mase kelas ak suke dok blakang jauh2..
pastu geng ngn shahrol..
ktorang g balun tdo bawah meja makmal..
member laen tolong cover ngn duduk cover kitorang..
sambil tdo sambil menyorok..sengal kan??
bleh tahan nakal gak ak ni bile ingat balik..lols...

*jgn terkejot kalau korang bagi ak katil, pastu ak tdo dalam loker plak..hahahaha...

you are such a sweet talker..

she said - " You are such a sweet talker"...
but before that randomly accused me of using 'ayat berbunga'..
here are ayat berbunga for you..

"You are like Haagen- Daaz ice cream choc..very cold..but when you starts to melt..you are so sweet especially from the inside..no other cream can beat you"..

"Your beauty is like Sakura.. when you bloom..everyone smiles..everyone fall in love with you for the first sight..so beauty till everyone wants to take a picture with you..your lovely alive color makes people remember you till they want to meet you again for the next time..."

"The reason of liking you is beyond the universe..Even I also don't know why I like you.."

"I'm thinking to spread hazelnut butter on your roti bakar and let you try it..how good it is"


 i'm only talking sweet to you..the other girls are a bit rough..
it's okay to perasan you are special to me..
coz I mean it.. (^_~)

things didn't go as planned..

it's like u wished to celebrate someone's bday..
u wanted to make at least a simple surprise..
like buying beautiful cake and gifts..
yet..you left your note open..
and the bday boy/girl read it..
and then he/she asked you about the plan..
then what say u?
who did surprise who?
funny kan..and on top of that, that's a big shame too..
things didn't go as smooth as I planned...

*lari laju2 sambil tutup muke laa..